thoughts from the new year

last night, i went to a new year's party with my family at the house of a family friend.

one thing that tends to be pretty common at parties is food, and this party was no exception.

there were two whole tables of food just waiting there for us to eat it.

among that food, there was a plate of doritos.

now, i'm a pretty big fan of doritos, so i made a mental note to myself so if i got hungry, i would know.

however, i didn't get hungry until almost midnight. when i did, i decided to go grab some.

one thing that whoever had brought the chips hadn't noticed, but of which i was soon made aware of, was that the chips, as yummy as they were, were stale.

i stood there, eating the stale chips, as the last few minutes of the year ticked away.

and all i could think of was how symbolic those chips could be.

i was eating away the old year, the staleness of the past twelve months, the uncomfortableness of new things, the awkwardness of new people.

all of that, which throughout the year, as whatever thing was there longer, became less awkward/uncomfortable, had become familiar to me. all of that awkwardness and staleness in relationships and uncomfortableness was gone.

and it seemed fitting that shortly before the new year, and a bit after as well (i took a break in between when the new year actually arrived), i was, symbollically at least, eating it away.



peace,love,gummybears, and a happy new year