friday night thinkings.

lately, i've been thinking about bedtimes a lot lately.

now, i haven't had a set bedtime in years. my parents just want me to get my homework done and get to sleep at a decent hour.

however, several things have happened lately that have made me think about bedtimes.

first: i'm starting to get back into the habit of staying up till 2 in the morning so i can talk to people. this is a habit that comes and goes, but it's been a while since i last had this habit.

second: we had a snow day yesterday. we found out that we had the day off the night before, which was nice.
at around midnight, i was downstairs talking to my parents and decided to go to sleep.
upon informing my parents of this, my mom started to laugh. i asked her why and she replied: "when you have school the next day, you stay up till 3. when you don't have school, you go to sleep semi-early, even though you can sleep in."

third: it's a friday night. i didn't have any plans tonight (when do i ever? *coughnerdcough*) and i haven't really been able to settle down and focus on one thing. i've tried reading, internet surfing, and several other things that i normally get sucked into. none of them have worked. for about an hour now, i've been considering going to sleep.

so, with all of these things in mind, i've been thinking about bedtimes.
when is one really old enough to not have a set bedtime?
it is when that person's responsibilities get to the point where staying up late is the only option?
is it when that person is mature enough to deal with a lack of sleep without completely annoying everyone around them?

lately, i've started to form the opinion that that point is when you can choose the choice that will make you appreciate things more.
call me an optimist, call me cheesy, call me whatever you want, but i believe that as part of our human nature, we want to find the good things in life. as much as we may try to not be happy or as much as life may do it's best to make us not happy, we will search out those little things that make us feel better.

so, by making the choice to stay up late, even when you know you'll be tired the next day, it's to make the act of sleeping a little better. like people say, you never really know what you have until it's gone. so by purposely depriving ourselves of something like sleep, something that we can control, we are making those days when we can go to sleep early and sleep late worth more.

or maybe i'm just over analyzing things, as i'm often known to do.

not sure.

what do you think?

peace,love,andsleep.