dancin'

so, as you guys may have noticed, i’ve had a lot on my mind lately, which is why i’ve been posting so much.

i wish i could tell you guys to get used to it, but we all know that this posting spree won’t last forever.

anyway, today i’ve been thinking about dancing.

last night, i was having a spontaneous solo dance party in my room and i was texting someone at the same time. the person i was texting and i were talking about how i want to be a writer. thinking about those two things together made me start thinking about why i love to dance.

i realized that the reason i love to dance is that for me, dance is basically wordplay.

when i dance, i respond to what the music is saying. i play with its message and try to bring it to life.

when the song has lyrics, i’ll incorporate the lyrics into my dancing. however, even when it’s just instrumental, the songs still speak to me. (ok, that sounds a little weird. i promise i’m not on drugs or anything.) when the song tells me that there is something exciting happening, i start doing fast footwork and jumps. when the song tells me something sad is happening, my movements slow down and i make more sweeping gestures. when i hear a message in the song, even if it’s not what the actual words are saying, i’ll respond to that.

for me, writing is gathering emotions and putting words to them. dancing is basically the same thing, only i’m putting movements to the words that appear in my head when i hear a song. i’m not actually writing the words down, but the same process is happening, only with an extra step.
when i dance, i just take all that i’m feeling, and i just let it all go. i forget myself. i lose myself in the emotions i find in the song.

that extra step is sometimes very helpful, especially when i’m down and feel like no one understands (this goes back to the whole teenager thing. yes, i know people understand. that doesn’t mean i won’t feel like that). even when i feel like i can’t tell people what i’m feeling or there’s no one to tell, i have dance.

often, i find myself dancing to words and messages that i don’t know how to express otherwise.

now, most of this only happens when i’m just dancing randomly at home or improvising to a song. when i’m dancing with my friends at like a dance or something, i’ll still love dancing and put everything into it, but i won’t forget myself, because i won’t have a reason to. i’ll be having too much fun being myself with my friends to think about forgetting myself.

i apologize if you guys are sick of me talking about what i feel and how i see the world, but since i’ve never been any one else, i can’t really talk about how anyone else sees the world. however, feel free to leave your thoughts, comments, and questions in the comments to help me look at the world in different ways. [:

so, today, let me know: why do you love doing something that you do?

peace,love,andwarmtightsonacoldday.