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Hello people of the world, particularly the followers of this blog.
I know I have been really good about posting lately. I even managed to post two parts of the story in two days!
Sadly, I must inform you that this will stop for a while.
Some of you may have noticed the fact that I have barely been on Sparklife lately.
That was one of the things to try to help.
It seems to have gone too far, even with my preventative techniques.
This was proven to us today, when I had the worst breakdown of the year.
I've had mini-almost-kinda-not-really-breakdowns before, but this was the real thing.
The sad thing is that it was two math tests that set me off, and I haven't been able to stop yet.
Every time I think I calm down, I almost break down crying again. I couldn't even eat dinner without crying.
This weekend I'm going on a camp thing, which will hopefully help de-stress me.
I believe that the possible causes are:
-stress
-trying to make a decision on whether I will keep dancing or not
-finals coming up
-my math grade (even though I shouldn't and have never before cared due to my hatred of math and the fact that I don't plan on ever being in a profession with more than average math involved)
-the fact that I set my expectations for myself way too high and over work myself trying to meet them. then I believe that everyone else expects more of me than I expect of myself, so I raise my expectations even higher, to the point of impossible
-my rollercoasting self esteem
Due to these reasons and in an attempt to keep my sanity, I shall stop posting for a little while.
Hopefully it will only be temporary.
I will try to get the occasional post in, but I doubt it will happen until I recover from this madness and finals are over.
Thank you for actually reading this.
peace, love, and gummybears,
~Maria
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Aw, I'm sorry Maria! You'll get through it, I've had several breakdowns before too. *hugs*
ReplyDeleteI had to decide whether to keep skating/dancing years ago, and I'm glad I did, it helped me get into college. :)
AWWW! I'm so sorry! You do sound really stressed and maybe taking a break is what would be best. And though I haven't taken them myself, I hear finals can be really frustrating. I really hope you feel better soon!
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ReplyDeletethanks. i do want to keep dancing, but i have so much going on that it's hard to. and i need a break, even if just for the summer. the last two summers i lived at my dance studio. i never hung out or anything.
@edgy
that's what i think.
finals are freaking me out. and the study guides are so vague.
thanks though. [:
:( Feel better! I've never had a breakdown, so I don't know how you feel. But, I think taking a break should help. Just relax and don't do anything at all.
ReplyDeleteJust sit around and have a bunch of cute guys serve your every need. :) They can fan you with those giant leaf things and feed you grapes. :)
awwww! im sorry! i hate breakdowns :( hope you feel better soon!
ReplyDeleteWe love you Gummerz <3 Come to any of us if you need to because we will always be here for you. :(
ReplyDeleteAww don't stress, you can vent to all of us! I hope you feel better soon!
ReplyDeletehaha wait a sec. the first thing on your bio is that you like pie and my username (on sparknotes) happens to be ellielikespie. YAY for pie! maybe pie is the key to feeling better!
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